When the camera arrives, are you ready to smile? Are selfies your thing? Great.
I know you’re side-eying me! But seriously…
For every “nice” picture you see on FB or Instagram, there are about 50 discarded shots or more and a 10-minute prep talk to even publish it. Making sure it’s just right.
Some people are naturals. Photo-friendly. I am not. When I dance, totally different ballgame. The cheesy smile and bright eyes debut and the flashing “Come watch me!” sign is over my head.
But when I’m out of my element, and it’s time for the camera or phone to come out, so do the insecurities. Don’t have my sunglasses on? Oof. That’s a problem. I see flaws, detailed “oh no” moments that you might not recognize, but I cringe and want to hide. Sometimes, I’ll volunteer to take the picture myself, so I can get out of it.
I know that’s bad. Very bad.
This year, I’m working on being more gracious to myself. Finding the positives. Not allowing the bad thoughts to take over. Being okay with a self portrait, even if I don’t have a full face of makeup on. Or feel my best. Or when it’s an impromptu shot with friends, and resisting the urge to untag it as soon as it gets posted online. Just allowing the moment occur.
It’s a daily mission to think positively about myself. Not just viewing myself in the role I have as a dance teacher or a friend. But liking Melanie Joy, the person. I’m getting there. Working on it. Most importantly, I have to remind myself that I am fearfully and wonderfully made. (Psalm 139:14). That’s comforting!
I tell ya, a muted Snapchat filter and a fierce, dark lip on a quiet Friday evening can change a mood. Even for a few minutes.
Do you deal with this? If so, you’re not alone. If you haven’t been told today, I want to let you know that you’re beautiful. You’re handsome. You’re loved. You look great. You got this.
Be kind to yourself today! Have a great weekend.